Trauma Response
One of the most peculiar aspects of childhood trauma is the way in which, as an adult, very small things can impact you when seemingly large things do not. There are aspects of that which, I learned long ago, will dog me until I'm dead. Not the least of those being approval. I know it's common to be approval-seeking, which I'm really not. But I do fear loss of approval. I fear that things I do will erode what little connection I have with people. I've got past the bulk of that issue, but it still rears its ugly sometimes.