2016 11 26 - 14:43

I passed!

I looked down once right after my first waza, to look for the tape – which should not do; and quickly after that I realised I lost the location of the tape entirely, but decided not to care. You have to not care at my level, if you lose the tape, because you can’t look down for it. Higher up, they’ll start caring a lot more about that sort of thing.

Basically, at this level, it’s all do the waza in order, don’t drop your sword, and don’t make a face. Even if you do the most spectacular screw-up, you might still pass if you show no reaction to it and just keep on going. I must have managed that one.

I did the waza in order. I did not drop my sword. And I am pretty certain I did not make a face.



2016 11 24 - 14:40

Sharing a gym with a kendo club, is like sharing your livingroom with a military onslaught, and its sound effects crew. It’s the next morning, and I still feel pukey from the headache I got last night from the noise. All things considered, I should have stayed at my home dojo; but when your sensei’s sensei beckons…

Also: To spend a year and a half having the zanshin beat into you, only to have someone try and beat it out of you again… not so simple!

When asked how it had gone, I said:

Not as well as I’d have liked. We were late because of traffic, so no real warm-up, and I felt very mistakey the whole time. Got a couple of good tips, but the noise from kendo was way too much for me, and made it hard to learn/think/absorb/etc.

In the well-over-a year since I first learned ganmen-ate, I have only gotten my saya stuck in my hakama once. Tonight? Four, maybe six times. It just wouldn’t stop.

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Ball sports

2016 11 23 - 14:35

These guys are standing around talking about ball sports, and all I’m thinking is, “Ha ha ha, I’ve got a sword.”

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Grading / Reiho

2016 11 12 - 14:29

Fourteen more sleeps until my grading. I'm trying to decide if I'm nervous about it at all. I know they don't expect too much from people testing for ikkyu - do the waza in order, don't drop your sword. It's all pretty simple in that sense.

But, I don't like public performance, and I don't want to screw this up - because I loathe embarrassing myself, and I don't want to embarrass my sensei by sucking any more than is expected of me at my rank, and by fucking up. His reputation is on the line also. Every time one of us is at a public event or testing, I feel like we have a little something extra to prove - not for ourselves, but for him.

Am I ready… yes. In a technical sense I am.

This is an old-fashioned method of standing reiho (etiquette or respect, but that doesn't fully define it) - now we keep the sageo (the cord hanging from the saya (scabbard)) all in the right hand. Otherwise, this is the bow I will do when I start and when I finish during testing. It's far less complicated than the bowing we do at the start and end of classes, which is comprised of four separate bows - two to the kamiza (spirit seat/shrine) - one standing and one sitting, one to the sensei, one to the sword. But it's also more complicated than it looks, and is open to a lot of booboos that could lose you passing a rank, especially at higher levels. They count reiho for a huge portion of your grading, even more so than the waza. In some cases, once they see you doing your reiho properly, they stop looking at you. Proper reiho shows depth of practice.

I still lose control of the sageo sometimes, but the trick is not to show it. Don't make a face. Keep going on like nothing happened, and you could still pass. Because schooling yourself is also part of the art, the game, and if you can master that, then you can master the art of psyching out your enemy so you can win before you even begin.


Coping / Praise

2016 09 20 - 22:01

My sensei (and others) has made comment on my ability/strength/etc given my vision issues and other life events, and my ability to cope so well/easily/whatever with them; sometimes saying that I'm a strong person for being able to have dealt with what I've dealt with, and saying I deserve praise, etc.

Yet, to me, I don't see that (no pun intended), as my life is my life, all things are, in a sense 'normal' to me, so I feel uncomfortable accepting praise.



2016 09 19 - 20:17

Now that my sensei lets me play with the big kids, he’s teaching me the big kid wazas. Ryuto translates roughly to “flowing sword”, I believe.

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2016 08 13 - 12:14

Recently I had an … I was about to say argument, but it was more like being under attack; but we’ll say argument for the sake of argument … argument with a … let’s say ‘friend’ for the sake of argument, though that is clearly no longer the case … friend, who chose to redirect my personal admissions back at me during whatever bout of rage it was she was having at the time. Angry in return, I merely told her to “shut the fuck up”, but I didn’t attack her. It all revolved around my experiences with Iaido – which you already know, having seen me mention this vitriolic situation previously.

I’m not one for overmuch spiritualism – it’s not my bag, never has been, and when I was younger and tried to make it so, it all gave me a headache. I do dabble a little in the philosophical aspects of Buddhism and Taoism, but that’s as far as it gets. I’m very much rooted in the here and now and what’s around me at the time. So when I mentioned, along with many other things that she attacked, the “personal journey” – something that I think a lot of folks go through when involving themselves heavily with certain Asian martial arts – she referred to all that as hippy bullshit. It really is not. There is a lot going on. There’s an enormous amount of stuff I am being forced to face by virtue of being in that dojo, by virtue of the art I study, and by virtue of the people I study it with. Trials and tests and lessons and all that. I just have not discussed it with anyone, because some of it is grossly embarrassing.

But what is bullshit, is someone who’d prefer to attack you with the gift of your honesty, rather than merely offer the opinion that they don’t agree. I don’t care if my friends don’t like what I do, don’t agree with what I do, don’t care what I do, etcetera, and feel the urge to tell me – because people can disagree with you, and disapprove of you, and still support you.

Was it hurtful? Yes, it was. It’s always hurtful to have someone you trust devalue you so meanly, but I have no time for vicious children; and I have no time for people who’d rather attack than talk it out.

As an aside: I told my sensei about this entire situation, about being called a ‘cheat’ and why I had been, etcetera; and, he doesn’t judge me. So. That’s the only person’s opinion other than my own that I need to care about in this situation.


Iaido Sword: Kamimoto-Ha Techniques of Muso Shinden Ryu

2016 07 31 - 15:29

Iaido Sword: Kamimoto-Ha Techniques of Muso Shinden Ryu

This book, which I have a well-used (by me), copy of, is somewhat of a bible in the form of Iaido I study – though not exhaustive, it’s well-packed with information regarding history, etiquette, techniques, and other information. Books are useful, of course, but nothing can take the place of a teacher.

Anyhow, one of the things it addresses, is the idea of rank in Iaido. Unlike other martial arts, there is no coloured belt ranking system in Iaido. You would never know upon entering a dojo, except by observance of their work, who was at what rank merely by looking at them - and even then you wouldn't know. All you would know is how good they were, not what rank they're at. Ranks exist, in the dan/black belt concept that is commonly understood, but anything that draws attention to the person and distracts others, is discouraged. It is felt that striving for a belt/rank might defeat the purpose of striving for quality. In fact, prior to the 1950s, coloured belt ranking didn’t exist in Japanese martial arts – it was an idea stolen from the Koreans, I believe.

To quote:

“The introduction of a rank structure into Iaido is a mixed blessing. On the one hand it defines an outline for the student to measure his progress, so in the best of circumstances it provides positive feedback. It also may provide motivation. This is a Western tactic. On the other hand rank structure runs the risk of becoming the objective instead of the means. […] The attainment of rank carries the seed of self-contentment, complacency, and vanity. The black belt who loses his “beginner’s mind” because he thinks he has attained it all will never come close to his potential. Ideally the student, either Eastern or Western, should practice Iaido for its own sake. He or she may not be able to ignore rank, but it should be of minimal importance. The quality of the Iaido should be the issue […]“

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Iaido Etiquette and Customs

2016 07 31 - 12:03


An Introduction to Iaido: Its Purpose and Benefits

2016 07 30 - 11:58

An Introduction to Iaido: Its Purpose and Benefits

Someone called me a ‘cheat’ because I don’t feel a strong inner need to go test and therefore grade in Iaido. I want to do it, but I don’t need to do it. They are not the same animal. This person also appears to have failed to comprehend that there is more to a martial art than learning to use a weapon or, to borrow a song lyric, “trash bozos”. I am not a person for whom competition is a motivator, nor do I need a piece of paper to tell me I’ve either done well or succeeded. While there is nothing wrong with those things, and at some point I will test and get my piece of paper, they aren’t the be-all and end-all for everyone. I need to improve myself, not compare myself to others.

I am getting the feeling that the utter lack of contact in Iaido, its complete lack of practical application, and my appreciation for its aspects of moving meditation, are not being grasped. I think, in some cases, it is one of those things that has to be done to be understood, at least for some folks.

Anyhow, this article explains some aspects of Iai that might clear up the mystery.</p><p>But, before I leave you, a couple of thoughts: