I remember, mama


2002 06 20    |    etc    no date    2024 +    2025    entries    home

My grandmother has to go to her first session at the heart and stroke clinic today, and part of what she needed to do beforehand was write up a medical history to take along with her. It's difficult for a woman born in 1927 to remember everything that's happened to her in 75 years. Wow. 75 years.

My grandmother was never really young to me, though I doubt most parents seem young to their children. From kneehigh height they all look old - even when they're 20 and barely out of childhood themselves. I remember thinking how old I'd be when I turned 20, then 25, then 30.

Now, I'm 33, and what struck me while I was helping my grandmother write up her medical history - as self-involved as this might seem on the surface - was how much of my life I can pin down depending on what she was going through at the time. How many small surrounding details I can remember. In so many ways, I remember her medical history better than I remember my own.

Yes, I remember you and Dolena going to the mall for the Swine Flu shots... Yes, I remember when you first started taking your thyroid medication, I remember you accidentally spilled some in a bowl of vegetable soup I was about to eat, we were still living on Riverdale Drive at the time. I remember. Yes, I remember, still living on Riverdale, the day your varacose veins popped and the bathtub filled with bloody towels... Yes, I remember when you had your ears pierced when you were 65., and I remember the stunned silence of last week when you had a stroke.

Sometimes it amazes, how much of your life you remember, when you measure it against the events surrounding other people.


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