The Curse
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Since the age of 12, when I started my period, I have had just about every related symptom and by-product there is - cramps, nausea, vomiting, diarrhoea, skin breakouts of various kinds, back pain, migraine aura, migraines, and PMS rage. But the worst, the absolute worst, has to be the depression.
I've gone through stretches of it before over the years, but the past year or so, it's been almost god-damned unbearable. Sometimes it makes me nearly dysfunctional. I can't think straight, see reason, get relief. It's even worse when, like this week, I have reasons for feeling unhappy.
I don't know how people with clinical depression deal with this shit on a daily basis. If a few days of it incapacitates me, what the hell is it doing to them?
Oh the joys of the biochemical fuckeduppery of being female.
Addendum:
Firefox wants to spell-check "fuckeduppery" to "scuppered"; which means to either deliberately sink a ship, or thwart something, prevent it from working. How apropos.